Roey
I finally understand how you were killed, how if you had acted selfishly you could have maybe survived, but you decided to put everyone ahead of you, and by doing that you saved more lives than we were told.
My heart is full of גאווה thinking of this even though the pain is unbearable. I miss you, I miss talking to you.
I miss our stupid conversations
I miss sending you stupid things
I miss having such an amazing son
I'm sad, like really sad,
I really think that most of it is not being able to feel you, I knew when things were not good by you, I could feel you, and I always tried to make things better, and now there is a part of me missing, and I realize that it's that connection that I had to you, that I can't feel you anymore.
Roey I love you. There has not been a day that has gone by where I haven't cried for you. It's so hard to watch others being ok, having so much to live for, and you are gone, because you had so much to do.
I always said that you would be the one changing my diapers when I was old and senile, because it was bond that we had, to take care of each other.